I just like saying that and doing dance moves like Re-Run from "What's Happening"...no patch today...sorry
I had a cry fest with my mom the other night about my lil sister...I called my mom looking for sympathy or at least some understanding and she did not give it to me, which really pissed me off...here is the background.
My lil sister lives on West Coast, I live in southern mid-west so we don't get to see each as much as I would like...I spoke with my niece last Thurs and she said "let me call you later, we are getting ready to board"...I said what, where are you going? She said that her and her mom (my lil sister) were flying to our home town which is 4 hours, door to door from my home. I was shocked! They were gonna be this close and not come see me? I asked niece how long they were gonna be there (because I will drive to see them)...she said til Monday....I said, well call me when you get there. So that was Thursday; I never heard from either of them all weekend...I was HURT & CRUSHED, I could not believe that they would be this close and not make an effort to see my 16 year old son...they have not seen him in at least 4 years (they lived in fucking Hawaii - and yes we flew to see them because I missed them---and it was Hawaii).
I call my mom and say "I don't understand why people don't treat you the way you treat them"...and she said "why do you expect that? You are supposed to treat people a certain way because it's the Christian thing to do and not expect anything in return"....I said that because when my niece went to college, I drove up to be with her for a family weekend because her mother could not be there...i just expected that regardless of our blow-ups, differences, and breakdown moments, we are still sisters and should act like it...evidently I am the only one that thinks like this.
From this point forward, I vow to not allow my sister to ever be able to hurt me like that again. I have not talked to her and don't plan on it...if I do, it will be very surface...I keep putting my self out there, for what? I would not accept her treatment from a random person, so I'm not going to do it for her.
The really fucked up thing is that, while she may or may not know how deep she hurt me, I know that she does not even care...
4.12.07
To the beat y'all
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Unfortunately, your sis is only being spiteful. No matter how much I despise my ex-mother in law, at the end of the day I would be crushed if anything was to ever happen to her like say for instance she got hit by a palm tree driving down the street or something, or if someone did a drive by and slapped her...Oh sorry, we are talking about you and your sister. Anyways, my sister did not come to my wedding because she didn't want to forfeit her sleep having to be at work all night...I hated her for that and I vowed not to speak to her but as your mom said "the christian" side of me forgave her, because some folks know not what they do or they want you to beat down the door for communication, either way, I hope she realizes that we are not promised tomorrow and she should not stay away or block your loving gestures!
Poc, how did you get so smart in 30 years (is it 30 yet?)...you are absolutely correct!
why thank you MS Addmws...=)
Oh and yes, its Offfffficial, Im 30
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