Mother's Day bah humbug

My mother and sister have pissed me off so bad that I literally mourned our relationship, because I knew that at that moment, things would NEVER be the same. I have tried to tell them both that over the past three years, I have changed...I am not the same co-dependent side kick they knew and loved. I refuse to enable people (THEM) any more. With that being said, I needed them to know that I'm not selling woof tickets (hahahah yes I'm an 80's baby)...so the best way to put my words to the test is showing...yes I'm from the show-me state, y'all betta recognize...

to much embarrassment, I told my sister that "her and our mother could kiss my ass - I'm done" with the pouting, then giving in, done crying to myself while wondering why they treat me like they do, done bowwing down to their ridiculous demands - DONE"

So I'm loving this new me, but then Mother's day comes and goes and I'm still standing strong...but feeling very disrespectful to my mother. Hey Ive got a conscious, even though I try to be strong. I know that I have 40 years to UN-do, but I feel bad that I did not get to show my mother how much I truly appreciate her. Although now she is making choices that I truly DO NOT agree with - she was a great mother. the kind of mother that cooked homemade meals, cleaned the house, helped with homework, made us go to church and still looked flawless EVERYDAY (don't forget worked outside the home too). She was the bomb! A great grandmother to my kids to boot. I miss her and I love her so much and I know that time is no ones friend...there will come a day that she will have to leave me, i saw it in her face the last time I was with her. She still has the twinkle, but its harder to see now because f the blue film seeping in...her cheeks are not as high as they once were and her posture is not as flirty as it used to be.

I love my mother and how far do I need to go to prove a point? Is that being selfish, ride disrespectful...am I shortening my days by taking a stand?
I'm confused.

Happy mothers day, yea right...this was the worst one ever....ADDson#1 was relentless in calling til he got me...ADDson@#2 sent a text???$#?A$?#?...ADDson#3 got me a card...and ADDhubby got me 2 cards, 50 Starbucks card and 100 shopping gift card...Thanks!