Why am I so damn easy...

to talk to? Everybody ALWAYS wanna spill they guts to me or ask my opinion about some shit. I get so sick and fucking tired of being the dependable, reliable, responsible adult!!!!!!!

I would love to go back to throwing my bills away (YES, I did this for 5 years, but it didn't mean SHIT to the creditors - I found out the hard way - sitting in the dark (no lights), couldn't call nobody (no phone) etc.. or just not giving a FUCK in general about anything or anybody. My damn kids have turned me into a punk...paying bills on time cause THEY need water to bathe and THEY want to eat everyday...my carefree days were full of not knowing. Not knowing how I was gonna get to the club, or not knowing if or what my next meal was going to be; not knowing where I was going to wake up the next morning (after drinking hard on someones elses dime). The anticipation of what was going to happen next was the bomb! It was like a surprise everyday.

But now...this shit is boring, monotonous, and just OLD! I pay bills on time, keep fridge stocked, have money in the bank, etc...and now the "carefree-ers" want to come to me and have me fund their lifestyle? I think not, If I cant be irresponsible with you, I ain't helping you!