Mother's Day bah humbug

My mother and sister have pissed me off so bad that I literally mourned our relationship, because I knew that at that moment, things would NEVER be the same. I have tried to tell them both that over the past three years, I have changed...I am not the same co-dependent side kick they knew and loved. I refuse to enable people (THEM) any more. With that being said, I needed them to know that I'm not selling woof tickets (hahahah yes I'm an 80's baby)...so the best way to put my words to the test is showing...yes I'm from the show-me state, y'all betta recognize...

to much embarrassment, I told my sister that "her and our mother could kiss my ass - I'm done" with the pouting, then giving in, done crying to myself while wondering why they treat me like they do, done bowwing down to their ridiculous demands - DONE"

So I'm loving this new me, but then Mother's day comes and goes and I'm still standing strong...but feeling very disrespectful to my mother. Hey Ive got a conscious, even though I try to be strong. I know that I have 40 years to UN-do, but I feel bad that I did not get to show my mother how much I truly appreciate her. Although now she is making choices that I truly DO NOT agree with - she was a great mother. the kind of mother that cooked homemade meals, cleaned the house, helped with homework, made us go to church and still looked flawless EVERYDAY (don't forget worked outside the home too). She was the bomb! A great grandmother to my kids to boot. I miss her and I love her so much and I know that time is no ones friend...there will come a day that she will have to leave me, i saw it in her face the last time I was with her. She still has the twinkle, but its harder to see now because f the blue film seeping in...her cheeks are not as high as they once were and her posture is not as flirty as it used to be.

I love my mother and how far do I need to go to prove a point? Is that being selfish, ride disrespectful...am I shortening my days by taking a stand?
I'm confused.

Happy mothers day, yea right...this was the worst one ever....ADDson#1 was relentless in calling til he got me...ADDson@#2 sent a text???$#?A$?#?...ADDson#3 got me a card...and ADDhubby got me 2 cards, 50 Starbucks card and 100 shopping gift card...Thanks!

Now where was I??/

Oh yeah...so my mother moved back to town from Cali and has given me a weeks notice. I shoot off a flaming e-mail about how unfair it is to disregard my schedule or my "to do" lists (yes I said its not fair and stomped off)...my sister paid $3500, plus her hours of labor getting my mom the fuck out of there and now I'm ready to rob a bank to send her back. Although she said that she completely understood that I had a life and she really didn't understand how her move here was causing me so much stress and worry. She has friends that are willing to help her get situated, blah, blah...WHERE THE FUCK WERE THOSE DAMN FRIENDS WHEN I GOT A CALL ON SUNDAY MORNING @ 9 AM ASKING ME TO DRIVE TWO HOURS TO PICK HER UP!!!!!

to add insult to injury, SHE had an attitude all the way home, because I let her ass have it on the phone about springin shit on me...so I bumped my Gospel music (hoping to get an attitude adjustment), but then when we pull up to my house, I call ADDson#3 to come get his grandmothers bags out of my trunk and she says to him "go get my garage opener, my house key and my car keys" (like she too pissed to enter my home)...ADDson# looks at me, I say "do it" and I drove off to fill my car up (60 damn dollars that she did not have a dime on) and wash my cadi from all the highway debris...OH SO NOW you wanna go find your friends...OK deuces@!

That was yesterday...

Also lilsissy text me last night asking if ADDson#1 had A.A.A.. because he blew a tire out on Fri night and they were gonna get his car towed to replace the tire...WTF? why does he need to have his car towed to replace a tire???? This is truly a case of having too much damn money!!! Here's a thought...remove the bad tire, place SPARE on and drive to the shop!!!! or remove tire and take tire to the shop...I swear I thought Commonsense was making a comeback, but obviously NOT~

I'm done apologizing...

for the slippages of blogging...hell it is, what it is. To apologize would indicate that I am wrong for something that I knowingly did and that is truly not the case.  GUILT BE GONE - AINT NO MORE ROOM HERE FOR YOU!

SO...all I can do is highlight the stuff that I would've normally blogged about:

• Xanbaby momma is still here and we have had a couple of blow-ups - nothing that we could not talk about later on though.
• ADDfriend #1 is moving to my little TOWN....I'm happy and excited but don't want her to feel guilty for leaving her sick sister.
• MY MOM DROPPED A BOMB ON ME - SHE IS MOVING BACK HERE!!! While normally that would be welcomed, it was such short notice that I have to believe that something else is going on...hmmm
• I'm finishing up this semester, still maintaining my Deans list status (just barely).
• On the outs with the mother of G-baby Zoe...whatever - she will need me before I need her.
• I've been working as a Trial Assistant for a Judge - part time to complete my Internship requirement and the stupidity of people nowadays just blows my mind. Dr. .P.H.IL said that "common sense was making a comeback", but shit-I can't tell.
• ummm Lil Sissy and I are only speaking by text or e-mail (wait, did I tell you that I only found that my niece is/has been MARRIED for 2 years - to a thug in prison) because they needed me to do her taxes and I HAD TO KNOW...I'm so over them both, its not even funny.
• ADDson#3 took his ACT test today and he realized all the school is NOT teaching him...now he is all fired up about it...blah, blah, go ahead start a revolution, march or sit-in...good luck with that!

Those are the highlights...see nothing much to discuss!

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